Translation of Rocker

So I cannot eat an entire fish, that looks like a fish and I cannot eat an entire chicken that looks like a chicken. Understand? It is all in the head, as I have told you before. Nothing personal.
Indeed, these two are very stronlgy connected. The first is often led by a certain party or representative who represents the interest of the others. It gives them a feeling of togetherness and belonging.
I had imagined my first dinner to be a little different, but I was already here and wanted to make the best out of it. So i ate there and return to my hostel at around ten o'clock at night.